Quitting.
Medschool.
Quitting. Medschool. Quitting Medschool.
Today is an extra-ordinary day. One, I woke up sick. Two, we have two quizzes tomorrow. Three, I cannot concentrate. And four, after 3 years, I thought of quitting medschool! My golllllyyy. Sobrang gaya-gaya ko talaga sa friend kong gustong mag-LOA!
After struggling to finish 1 out of the 4 chapters in Harrison's for our reading assignment (na hindi ko rin natapos kasi I felt super saturated already!), I called up Normie.
Me: Grabe ayoko na! Sobrang imposible namang mamemorize mo lahat ng pinapamemorize nila! Hindi lahat ng gustong magdoktor nerd! Hindi na to makatao!!!!!
N: ............
Me: E hello isang chapter palang binabasa ko hindi ko na mamemorize, pano pa yung ibang chapters, yung ibang subject, yung mga dapat aralin para sa ibang araw!
N: ummmmmm............
Me: Sabi nila hindi kailangan i-memorize e hello dictation tapos identification at enumeration!!!!! Ayoko ng mag-aral!!!!!!!!!!!
N: Sayang naman kung ngayon ka pa mag-qquit.
Me: E magttrabaho na lang ako sa ibang bansa para kumita ko ng malaki!!!!!!!! Hindi na ko mag-aaral forever and ever! Sobrang dami, sobrang hirap. Hindi ba pwede magic na lang gumagaling yung mga tao!!!!!!!!! BAKIT KAILANGAN NAMING MAGPAKAMATAY KAKAARAL, PARA MABUHAY YUNG IBANG TAO?????? BAKETTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
N: uhhhhhhhhhhh.................
Me: Okay fine. Choice ko to, pero sobra na talaga! Pano na lang kami? Kahit hindi na ko matulog at kumain buong araw at magmemorize na lang ang gawin 24/7 hindi ko mamememorize lahat ng to, mamamatay pa rin sila. Bakit ganon??????? Sobra ng pahirap. Bakettttttt?????????
N: ...........................
Me: Okay maliligo na muna ko. Ayoko na talagang mag-aaral! Ayoko na talaga mag-med!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kakaaral, kakapuyat, ako may sakit. Tapos kasalanan mo pa pag mababa grade mo e nagpapakamatay ka na nga kakaaral!!!!!!!!!!!!
N: Kala ko maliligo ka?
Me: Um, oo. Pero Pangs, grabe ayoko na talaga mag-aral forever and ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay bye, ligo na ko.
After taking a bath, diretso sa Starbucks!
Texted Normie, "Starbucks ako, aral muna ko dito. Ang dami kong narealize! I can do this! Tatapusin ko to! Talk to you later."
Then........................................................
When I came back to the dorm, I logged on Facebook and read this post from Makee:
Is it really worth it? just don't throw away everything because of what you feel today...What you feel today may be different tomorrow... I just hope you made the right choice...
And this quote for the day from my email:
Most people give up just when they're about to achieve success. They quit on the one yard line. They give up at the last minute of the game, one foot from a winning touch down. ~Ross Perot
After all, what matters most is what we want to do with our lives. The how-to's? They change. They always change. But as for me, I wanted to reach out to people by becoming a doctor. Marami pa kong ibang gustong gawin sa buhay ko, pero becoming a doctor is my number one priority. Marami pang rants na darating, e hanggang dun na lang naman ako, pagbigyan na. Hahaha!
Never quit.
My time will come.....
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!