Anyway, people change. And so do I. So instead of writing down resolutions, I'm going to look back on the past year.
The first two months of this year is real tough. I don't how I managed it, but it's a good thing I survived. I was shaken by the core. I'm grateful having people to check on me if I'm okay, to lend a hand, to be someone to cry on and to hear every shit that I want to say. I must say I nearly dried up my lacrimal gland this time of the year. Hahaha!
** Two of my grandmothers were brutally killed/ murdered.
** My maternal grandfather died of old age.
** I was.. Okay. I prefer to skip this shit. Surely, this made a stronger and a grown-up woman.
My mind was too preoccupied with so many things, just when I realize I am spending the last days of my college life. The feeling was, uh, I'm sure it wasn't the same feeling I felt when I was about to graduate in high school, but still I felt like.. "Eto na yung real world na tinatawag nila." And I was like.. "Maghihiwalay-hiwalay na naman?!?" I hate that feeling when I do not have any choice but to let go of the people I shared my lunch with, people who would crack the corniest joke just to see me smile, and people who would sign the attendance when I'm absent or sick. Uh, not really let go. It's just sick to hear that seeing each other would be something to be planned.
I graduated this year having the degree in Bachelor of Science in Pharmacy. Honestly, I was happy but I was not overwhelmed by this event. I was happy because after four years of hard work, after four effin years of mixing and titrating and compounding drugs.. finally.. I'm off. But I wasn't overwhelmed as I have said because of the many things to be done and I was like "Gaaaaddd. Where in the world can I buy time?" I have too many things to accomplish and it distracts me from celebrating. Plus the thought of staying in school without my old friends and my Papa wasn't there.
Yes. I did passed the NMAT the other year, applied for Med School this year and was accepted to enter my dream Medical School - USTFMS. The feeling was great. Though I really had a hard time coping with the people around me - because they are not so me - and the lessons and my time frame. I learned to not to depend on others since everyone's having their own business. I did changed.. A LOT. Now, I am able to say "NO" and turn down invites. Peer pressure is a no-no for me now.
Celine Aura T. Santos, R.Ph.
I am now a Registered Pharmacist - an Allied Health Professional!!! Bahaha! After months of real study, of sleepless nights while reading PACOP, of tireless walks along Morayta just to attend review classes in MANOR, of sacrificing summer family and barkada outings.. I got what I deserve. My friends and I, we got what we truly deserve.
After a year of BOMBING - hahahahaha! I must say. Ang tibay! Hahahaha! It's nice to have someone you can call or run to anytime of the day. That someone you can tell everything - pagbubugnot, isang perfect quiz, successful plenary labcon, pinagalitan ng nanay, bagsak na anatomy pracs - as in everything. That someone who will tell you you're great though you're not. That someone you'll spend some of your weekends and holiday breaks with -pampawi ng pagod.
My 21st birthday surprise. A BLAST! I don't what to say.. Eeeeh. But really, it's the best birthday EVER.
2008's closing is a good one. I was able to reunite with my high school classmates -Chauvet. It was good reminsicing the past with them. A lot of catching up to do, I really had fun. After more than 4 years, most of the people are on the work field now. Few are about to graduate and here we are (the very few) who would really want to pursue Medicine and Law.
Friendship is not related to distance.
This year has been the "changing year" for me if linguists would allow that term. I've changed a lot. I must say I'm stronger now. I must admit that most of the time I still don’t act like a responsible adult, but I am on my way there. That's the start anyway.
It's hard growing up. Changes --- a lot. Temptations --- a lot. Sucks right? I don't know how to survive this, but I surely did.
Cheers! Cheers for the year ahead.
